Publications and Depression

Recurring thoughts:

• I am Seriously Depressed
• I am clinically depressed
• I am never going to write another poem
• I should write a novel
• I am never going to write anything at all
• My blog is a clusterfuck
• If I said this to you in real life I would feel insecure and be very quite after I told you

I am taking over the internet with my series of poems that I have been writing for my entire life.

I spent 20 months at a boarding school from the age of 16 to 18. It was in upstate New York in the woods.

I wasn’t there because my parents were rich I was there because I was “at risk.” (Quote taken from the school’s brochure.)

I have been writing poems about this boarding school for 5 years.

I can’t finish the “series.” I keep starting over.

• I will never write anything worthwhile
• This is my life’s work
• This is a masterpiece
• I will never finish this

I want you to recognize my accomplishments.

I want you to publish my book so that I will feel happy because life is a series of depressions which I pull out of via publications and sex and many hours playing video games on a very large computer screen.